well ive been struggling some time now to loose weight and get healthy..ive been overweight a long time – and a car accident a few years ago added to the weight gain, and general unhealthiness of my personage.. constant pain, lots of medications, lack of movement, spiralling depression… nothing good was ever gunna come from this. .. and it didnt – type 2 diabetes diagnosis last year… the shock made me pull my finger outa my butt and look at my weight.. i did well in the first couple of months , started taking Herbalife , lost a couple of stone.. but then the evil depression reared its head again , i lost motivation , kept forgetting to prepare the shakes and just slipped back into bad habits..
Now ive been on every diet on the planet.. done them all .. cabbage soup, ducan, 5:2, atkins, happy belly, slimming world, weight watchers, herbalife, etc etc etc.. now while they all worked.. to a degree.. what i wasn’t doing was really thinking of what i was doing… i was using a crutch to get weigh off quick… then it would all go wrong.. id get mad, depressed and fatter…
wellllllllllll ive had enough now… its been a shitty few years, lots of things went wrong after that accident and i need to change.. i want my life to be a good one ive a gorgeous and fantastic man, two fake children and a fantasticly supportive and patient sister.. as well as many friends,, ive a new business ive started and i need to be well for this to work, i need to earn money so i can pay off debts and train further to develop my skills and really start to live the life i want…
Today was day 1… i have taken time from work, time to start my path to healthiness.. i had great ideas of the two week period.. a very romantic idea of early morning sunny walks, hot showers, pamper sessions, etc etc .. you know the kinda thing i mean.. well it didnt happen..
i woke up, knackered !! begrudgingly went shopping , came back…. made a healthy fruit and veggie smoothie and hot tea to kick start my day.. i then sat on my ass and watched 5 episodes of penny dreadful, fell asleep – for 6 hours.. and woke up at 10pm… good start hey.
this is when i decided to start this blog again… i let my lazy ass take over too much, i sleep too much and am a general waste of space when im like this.. i need to focus on good productive things… for now im gunna have some nuts and go to bed with harry potter ..day one was a non starter
but tomorrow is a new day…
my plan for the next .. well forever is to be healthy.. to concentrate on HEATH instead of just weigh-loss.. to develop a healthy attitude to food and exercise.. to stop using quick fix ideas but to have a good, informed relationship with food that becomes normal for me .. to get to know, and learn to love me again..
this will i hope help with relieving the depression and finally make me feel at peace with myself…………..
here goes…………. wish me luck 🙂
healthy or no ?? which will win ?? 