Day 2…

well i made it to day two , so that’s a jolly good start 🙂

woke up this morning after zero kip .. So i was very tyty.. I got a call for a couple of jobs ( I’m a self employed massage therapist) so up i got .. I made myself a fresh green juice smoothie for brekkie and took a jar of juice with me on my travels.. Work went extremely fast and i had tones of energy . I’m usually buggered in the a.m .. Maybe its because i gave myself fuel instead of the usual nothing !!?

 

i decided to keep busy so i didn’t fall asleep like yesterdays effort .. So me n the boyf worked on our little project of refurbishing a chair.. I’m quite pleased so far with the results…ill add pics when i can work out how !! Had a nice bowl of soup for din dins ( i did have a naughty bread bun and slice of cake) ( at my boyfriends house … I should have stayed away while trying to reset my food brain).. To make up for this terrible crime i took Trevor for a walky .. This would be trev the staffie, not the person… And that’s the end of day two … Wasn’t toooooo bad, nor was it great … Tomorow one will attempt to up my game … I will bloody do this .. I HAVE to ….

 

opiates await my tired sholder… Over n out fine people …see yall maniana xxx

Day 1…

well ive been struggling some time now to loose weight and get healthy..ive been overweight a long time – and a car accident a few years ago added to the weight gain, and general unhealthiness of my personage.. constant pain, lots of medications, lack of movement, spiralling depression… nothing good was ever gunna come from this. .. and it didnt – type 2 diabetes diagnosis last year… the shock made me pull my finger outa my butt and look at my weight.. i  did well in the first couple of months , started taking Herbalife , lost a couple of stone.. but then the evil depression reared its head again , i lost motivation , kept forgetting to prepare the shakes and just slipped back into bad habits..

Now ive been on every diet on the planet.. done them all .. cabbage soup, ducan, 5:2, atkins, happy belly, slimming world, weight watchers, herbalife, etc etc etc.. now while they all worked.. to a degree.. what i wasn’t doing was really thinking of what i was doing… i was using a crutch to get weigh off quick… then it would all go wrong.. id get mad, depressed and fatter…

wellllllllllll ive had enough now… its been a shitty few years,  lots of things went wrong after that accident and i need to change..  i want my life to be a good one ive a gorgeous and fantastic man, two fake children and a fantasticly supportive and patient sister.. as well as many  friends,, ive a new business ive started and i need to be well for this to work, i need  to earn money so i can pay off debts and train further to develop my skills and really start to live the life i want…

Today was day 1… i have taken time from work, time to start my path to healthiness.. i had great ideas of the two week period.. a very romantic idea of early morning sunny walks, hot showers, pamper sessions, etc etc .. you know the kinda thing i mean.. well it didnt happen.. 

i woke up, knackered !! begrudgingly went shopping , came back…. made a healthy fruit and veggie smoothie and hot tea to kick start my day.. i then sat on my ass and watched 5 episodes of penny dreadful, fell asleep – for 6 hours.. and woke up at 10pm… good start hey. 

this is when i decided to start this blog again… i let my lazy ass take over too much, i sleep too much and am a general waste of space when im like this.. i need to focus on good productive things… for now im gunna have some nuts and go to bed with harry potter ..day one was a non starter

but tomorrow is a new day…

my plan for the next .. well forever is to be healthy.. to concentrate on HEATH instead of just weigh-loss.. to develop a healthy attitude to food and exercise.. to stop using quick fix ideas but to have a good, informed relationship with food that becomes normal for me .. to get to know, and learn to love me again.. 

this will i hope help with relieving the depression and finally make me feel at peace with myself…………..

here goes…………. wish me luck 🙂

hello world wide web thingy

well hello there … its been a long while since i came into this beautiful land of documentation,, but today i came back .. fiddled about a bit with the name of the blog etc and have decided to try and use this space to keep my self straight… if your reading.. hi, thanks and hope it doesn’t give you nightmares.. this for me is going to be a kinda dairy of sorts.. something to keep me accountable to myself and a place to document my daily struggles and successes with trying to get my health and life back .

Greetings followers :)

Wow.. i have followers !! thanks awfully to those who have choose to follow this fantastical crazy blog.. im still not sure what the heck im doing but will learn as i go along…

so how have i done this week ??? well the simple answer to that is…. well there is no simple answer !! i started my week all full of enthusiasm… i started my blog and set up a facebook page , and was all ‘ im so gunna do this thing’ – i kinda have had not a too bad week…. but i also have had a smidgen of lazyitus.. 

let me fill you in a bit on what it is im doing, and why im doing it…

being overweight for sometime, ive yoyo dieted and have always ended up back in the big pants !! ive had a couple of car accidents that have put me outa action and also depression that made me want to sleep as well as eat anything that wasn’t moving… in December last year i was diagnosed with type 2 diabeties…. although it is in my family and i knew my eating habits would take me there, it was still a shock. 

It was that day i made a decision to loose weight… once and for all …

sooooo i joined my local slimming world and was all up for the challenge…. however it was the most un- inspiring thing i have ever attended.. i lasted a week and a half… 

Christmas came…. i put on weight… 😦

This is when i decided to give this Herbalife thing a try…. i was very sceptical… you know – ‘how the hell can man live by shake alone ?’  ‘surely ill be bloody hungry if i can have only one meal with the two shakes?’  ive done ALL the diets before… and none have worked… but what the hell…. i had to do something right?

well i went in, fully expecting to fail… then the strangest thing happened… it worked.. i mean it ACTUALLY WORKED!! i was full, i was enjoying the shakes and actually looking forward to the next one…. and i was loosing weight…. within a week i noticed my energy levels were up.. i was sleeping, and waking up without feeling like i had a permanent hangover… could this possibly be this powder in the shakes ?? turns out – yeah it can, 

ive been on them for about 6 weeks now, ive dropped a stone in weight and i feel like a different person.. it really is incredible… this is the longest ive lasted on any diet… but now is where it gets hard…

this is normally when i slip…. i start to revert to bad habits and eventually give up all together.

i can feel this happening… even though the herbalife products make me feel so good, it is hard to brake such bad habits…

this is why i have started my blog. to share with anyone who cares to read my daily struggles of achievement  and hopefully stay on track, reach my goals and maybe even help others along the way…..

whos with me ?????

Welcome

Hello world wide web… Im Jeni and welcome to my brand new and first ever blog.. I’m just getting to terms with the computer me bob and its workings, so excuse any mistakes …. this will be a most treacherous journey of weight loss, exercise and general biscuit avoidance… with my Herbalife product in hand i will go through each day and see where i end up.. please join me on this trip of a lifetime and help me (and hopefully others ) get to my goal of skinny knickers and optimal health 🙂